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rinmonsterer 22 July 2008 @ 12:27 am
So, um, yeah, hmmm...
Following a comments discussion on spiritof1976's journal...my next project is MANIC STREET PREACHERS - THE MUSICAL. (VERY) loosely based on the idea behind Mamma Mia...
I'm a little weird...
*so not fandom filtered cos it isn't fandom (but I've just joined some Manics fandom comms. Yes, I said that, Manics fandom coms. Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...)
spiritof1976's journal...my next project is MANIC STREET PREACHERS - THE MUSICAL. (VERY) loosely based on the idea behind Mamma Mia...I'm a little weird...
*so not fandom filtered cos it isn't fandom (but I've just joined some Manics fandom comms. Yes, I said that, Manics fandom coms. Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...)
12 July 2008 @ 11:01 am
How to be friends with Pinkfriction
HOW TO BE FRIENDS WITH PINKFRICTION
1. Take me for who I am - I can be a bitch and a hypocrite. I am not perfect and don't pretend to be.
2. Don't bitch - I dislike bitchiness in others. Told you I am a hypocrite!
3. Don't be offended - I'm a grown-up and I ocassionally use bad language. If this offends you I'm probably not your ideal friend.
3. Don't judge - I post a LOT of personal stuff, sometimes with far TMI. Some of my RL ramblings may make you think that I am many things - and some of them I probably am. However, I don't want to be told that my actions are wrong/distasteful/immoral. Don't judge me.
4. Don't be shy - I am endlessly fascinated by people. I will ask you questions about anything and everything.
5. Be curious - I don't like people who don't make an effort to learn. I don't mean in a 'go to University-get a degree' kind of way, I mean in a 'life is fascinating-lets find out more' kind of way.
6. Be nice - I don't take things at face value, but I can be naive about people's intentions.
7. Don't preach - I am an atheist, you can believe whatever you want to but don't try to convince me please.
8. Don't think I'm not reading - I will read everything you post, but don't always comment. It's nothing personal.
9. Don't think I don't care - I have a terrible memory. Please don't get offended if I have forgotten something important that you have blogged about before.
10. Have lots of fun - I like to have fun. I like to bounce. I like to squee about random things. I can get VERY annoying!
IF YOU LIKE WHAT YOU SEE COME ON IN AND JOIN ME!
Idea shamelessly stolen fromtomnoir
1. Take me for who I am - I can be a bitch and a hypocrite. I am not perfect and don't pretend to be.
2. Don't bitch - I dislike bitchiness in others. Told you I am a hypocrite!
3. Don't be offended - I'm a grown-up and I ocassionally use bad language. If this offends you I'm probably not your ideal friend.
3. Don't judge - I post a LOT of personal stuff, sometimes with far TMI. Some of my RL ramblings may make you think that I am many things - and some of them I probably am. However, I don't want to be told that my actions are wrong/distasteful/immoral. Don't judge me.
4. Don't be shy - I am endlessly fascinated by people. I will ask you questions about anything and everything.
5. Be curious - I don't like people who don't make an effort to learn. I don't mean in a 'go to University-get a degree' kind of way, I mean in a 'life is fascinating-lets find out more' kind of way.
6. Be nice - I don't take things at face value, but I can be naive about people's intentions.
7. Don't preach - I am an atheist, you can believe whatever you want to but don't try to convince me please.
8. Don't think I'm not reading - I will read everything you post, but don't always comment. It's nothing personal.
9. Don't think I don't care - I have a terrible memory. Please don't get offended if I have forgotten something important that you have blogged about before.
10. Have lots of fun - I like to have fun. I like to bounce. I like to squee about random things. I can get VERY annoying!
IF YOU LIKE WHAT YOU SEE COME ON IN AND JOIN ME!
Idea shamelessly stolen from
tomnoir08 April 2008 @ 09:42 am
Happy Blogversary to me!
I started this blog exactly one year ago (as littlemrsme). At that time I never dreamed that I would get so addicted to LJ - but here I am!
Here are my birthday statistics:
Number of entries: 264 (this is my 265th!)
Numbers of comments received: 388
Number of comments made: 932
I'm not counting up any of my fic written or anything like that, because I post that on my fic journal and also I mostly 'do' fandom at IJ. I will collate that info at some point though.
Anyway, I must get on with work.
At: Work
Hearing: XFM
01 March 2008 @ 07:26 pm
I'm begging of you please don't take my man
Short story written for the Second Chance challenge at ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif)
qaf_challenges to be found at my fic journal pinkcreative
*EDIT: It will be up soon, 'cos I need to reformat and I'm having trouble :(*
qaf_challenges to be found at my fic journal pinkcreative*EDIT: It will be up soon, 'cos I need to reformat and I'm having trouble :(*
At: Home
Feeling: 
grumpy
grumpy23 December 2007 @ 05:51 pm
Knowing me, knowing you - AHA!
Snagged from various people...
I know very little about some of the people on my friends list. Some people I know relatively well. I read your journals, or we have something else in common and we chat occasionally. Some of you I hardly know at all. Perhaps you lurk, for whatever reason. But you friended me and I thank you for your interest in my words.
But here's a thought: why not take this opportunity to tell me a little something about yourself? Any old thing at all, the more trivial and fascinating, the better. Just so the next time I see your name I can say: "Ah, there's so and so...they enjoy eating brownie batter while watching old disco movies."
I'd love it if every single person who friended me would do this. Yes, even you people who I know really well. Then post this in your own journal and see what gems of knowledge appear.
I know very little about some of the people on my friends list. Some people I know relatively well. I read your journals, or we have something else in common and we chat occasionally. Some of you I hardly know at all. Perhaps you lurk, for whatever reason. But you friended me and I thank you for your interest in my words.
But here's a thought: why not take this opportunity to tell me a little something about yourself? Any old thing at all, the more trivial and fascinating, the better. Just so the next time I see your name I can say: "Ah, there's so and so...they enjoy eating brownie batter while watching old disco movies."
I'd love it if every single person who friended me would do this. Yes, even you people who I know really well. Then post this in your own journal and see what gems of knowledge appear.
At: Home
23 December 2007 @ 12:06 pm
Also
If anyone is interested I now have a story/icon journal here. I'm really just starting out writing fic but I'm enjoying it and that's what is important to me. It's going to be mostly BBM fic for now, as I bagged Alma Del Mar in fanfic100, although I have a few QAF ideas and other stuff floating around in my not-very-organised brain.
Icons too - mostly BBM but some others. Nickage is great, credit even better :)
fanfic100, although I have a few QAF ideas and other stuff floating around in my not-very-organised brain. Icons too - mostly BBM but some others. Nickage is great, credit even better :)
At: Home
Hearing: Nada
13 December 2007 @ 12:28 am
"Leave my f*****g legs alone"! - Manic Street Preachers, Brixton Academy December 12th 2007
The Manics never disappoint on the gig front, and tonight was no exception. Kicking off with 'Motorcycle Emptiness' they played yet another blistering 90 minute set filled with the good old classics.
A random mix of songs tonight, no particular 'era' dominating. It irks slightly that nowadays they get 'You Love Us' out of the way very early in the set when it was always the traditional closer, but it actually does get the crowd fired up and into action.
The songs from 'Send Away the Tigers' ('Autumnsong', 'I'm Just a Patsy' and 'Your Love Alone') sounded a little incongruous tonight, although I love the album. The one song from Lifeblood ('1985') actually seemed to fit in better to the setlist.
There was plenty of between song banter from the (still gorgeous) Nicky Wire, the quote in the title of this post coming from a rant about a Telegraph journalist saying that he shouldn't wear skinny jeans or dresses anymore. I think that he still looks amazing, but maybe a bloke pushing forty shouldn't wear a skirt quite that short! Nicky also had a pop at James' solo career, and the decision to include 'So Why So Sad' on 'Forever Delayed' instead of 'Roses in the Hospital'.
James' voice was on top form again, the acoustic 'This is Yesterday' turned into almost a love song to Richey. Unlike the Reading gig I attended earlier in the year tonight the absence of Mr Edwards seemed less pronounced tonight, but he remains in the hearts of the band and the fans.
I realise now that I am getting old - I was secretly pleased that the Academy hadn't sold out! I saw Carter USM there last month and it was too packed. Tonight I had a good view and I could breathe! I stood stage right as looking at it, as that is Nicky's side, but I had forgotten (again) that there is a bloody great big bank of speakers on that side (there is on the other side as well but the angle of the stage means they aren't in the way as much) so Nicky kept disappearing behind them all night!
Ending on 'Design for Life' does work. It is a big anthemic closer and the 'beer and kebab' crowd seemd to have finally left the building so I don't mind it so much nowadays.
Another realisation of my age was that tonight I didn't bother waiting for the band outside. It was too cold, and the big advantage of the Academy is that it is easy to get home from so I just went for the bus with my personal bar attendant (otherwise known as the Husband!). Also, my legs are aching and I didn't even bounce that much!
Overall a fantastic gig, and it has certainly cheered me up after todays earlier shenanigans. Pics to follow, but they were taken with my crap camera phone again so they aren't very good.
A random mix of songs tonight, no particular 'era' dominating. It irks slightly that nowadays they get 'You Love Us' out of the way very early in the set when it was always the traditional closer, but it actually does get the crowd fired up and into action.
The songs from 'Send Away the Tigers' ('Autumnsong', 'I'm Just a Patsy' and 'Your Love Alone') sounded a little incongruous tonight, although I love the album. The one song from Lifeblood ('1985') actually seemed to fit in better to the setlist.
There was plenty of between song banter from the (still gorgeous) Nicky Wire, the quote in the title of this post coming from a rant about a Telegraph journalist saying that he shouldn't wear skinny jeans or dresses anymore. I think that he still looks amazing, but maybe a bloke pushing forty shouldn't wear a skirt quite that short! Nicky also had a pop at James' solo career, and the decision to include 'So Why So Sad' on 'Forever Delayed' instead of 'Roses in the Hospital'.
James' voice was on top form again, the acoustic 'This is Yesterday' turned into almost a love song to Richey. Unlike the Reading gig I attended earlier in the year tonight the absence of Mr Edwards seemed less pronounced tonight, but he remains in the hearts of the band and the fans.
I realise now that I am getting old - I was secretly pleased that the Academy hadn't sold out! I saw Carter USM there last month and it was too packed. Tonight I had a good view and I could breathe! I stood stage right as looking at it, as that is Nicky's side, but I had forgotten (again) that there is a bloody great big bank of speakers on that side (there is on the other side as well but the angle of the stage means they aren't in the way as much) so Nicky kept disappearing behind them all night!
Ending on 'Design for Life' does work. It is a big anthemic closer and the 'beer and kebab' crowd seemd to have finally left the building so I don't mind it so much nowadays.
Another realisation of my age was that tonight I didn't bother waiting for the band outside. It was too cold, and the big advantage of the Academy is that it is easy to get home from so I just went for the bus with my personal bar attendant (otherwise known as the Husband!). Also, my legs are aching and I didn't even bounce that much!
Overall a fantastic gig, and it has certainly cheered me up after todays earlier shenanigans. Pics to follow, but they were taken with my crap camera phone again so they aren't very good.
02 December 2007 @ 04:04 pm
The God Delusion
Since reading tomnoir's post about marriage the other day, I have been thinking about my own relationship with religion. As I get older I am starting to find it more and more hypocritical of people to engage in religious activities that they don't really believe in. I don't 'do' God, but I used to. I was baptised into the Church of England as a baby, as were all of my siblings. My parents didn't really do God either. I think it was just something that you do, a traditional rather than a religious thing. However, I then chose as a teenager to be confirmed into the Church. That was my decision, and I was fairly religious for a while, and although I did 'flirt' with other denominations (the Baptist Youth Group kids were a bit cooler, you know?) I considered myself to be a Christian and a member of the CofE.
I can't really remember when I decided that religion wasn't really for me. Probably when I was at University. Almost certainly when I realised that I'm bisexual and I couldn't quite reconcile the teachings of the Church on homosexuality with my own feelings. But I still bought into some of it. I attended religious events, if asked what religion I was I would say 'Christian', I still, kind of, believed.
As I get older I have come to the conclusion that I don't believe. I have no problem with people that do, but the idea of an all powerful omnipresent 'God' no longer has any meaning for me. The role of 'religion' in practically every major conflict that has ever taken place just reinforces to me the fallacy of it all. (NOTE: I put 'religion' in inverted commas for a reason - I know it isn't necessarily the belief system itself but how it is interpreted that is important).
As I said at the beginning of the post, I find it hypocritical that people 'use' religious celebration and culture when they don't believe in what they are buying in to. The atheist couple who want the picture-postcard white wedding in the pretty village chapel, the non-believers who baptise their children and sit through church ceremonies surreptitiously listening to their iPods so their spawn will get into the Church school, even to an extent the singing of religious carols at Christmas (although this has perhaps more cultural/traditional aspects rather than religious per se). Christmas is another debate altogether, of course, although I would argue that its roots in pagan celebration and the appropriation of the time/symbols/events by the Christian Church make it easier for an atheist to not get too worked up about it.
If you 'do' God, whatever religion you are, that is your choice and I respect that , but your religious activity has meaning and relevance for you and I wouldn't want to intrude on it with my heathen attitudes. So I will stay away from the Church, marry in a civil ceremony, not baptise my child(ren) and stick to Christmas as being a time to spend quality time with my family rather than as a celebration of the birth of Christ, OK?
tomnoir's post about marriage the other day, I have been thinking about my own relationship with religion. As I get older I am starting to find it more and more hypocritical of people to engage in religious activities that they don't really believe in. I don't 'do' God, but I used to. I was baptised into the Church of England as a baby, as were all of my siblings. My parents didn't really do God either. I think it was just something that you do, a traditional rather than a religious thing. However, I then chose as a teenager to be confirmed into the Church. That was my decision, and I was fairly religious for a while, and although I did 'flirt' with other denominations (the Baptist Youth Group kids were a bit cooler, you know?) I considered myself to be a Christian and a member of the CofE. I can't really remember when I decided that religion wasn't really for me. Probably when I was at University. Almost certainly when I realised that I'm bisexual and I couldn't quite reconcile the teachings of the Church on homosexuality with my own feelings. But I still bought into some of it. I attended religious events, if asked what religion I was I would say 'Christian', I still, kind of, believed.
As I get older I have come to the conclusion that I don't believe. I have no problem with people that do, but the idea of an all powerful omnipresent 'God' no longer has any meaning for me. The role of 'religion' in practically every major conflict that has ever taken place just reinforces to me the fallacy of it all. (NOTE: I put 'religion' in inverted commas for a reason - I know it isn't necessarily the belief system itself but how it is interpreted that is important).
As I said at the beginning of the post, I find it hypocritical that people 'use' religious celebration and culture when they don't believe in what they are buying in to. The atheist couple who want the picture-postcard white wedding in the pretty village chapel, the non-believers who baptise their children and sit through church ceremonies surreptitiously listening to their iPods so their spawn will get into the Church school, even to an extent the singing of religious carols at Christmas (although this has perhaps more cultural/traditional aspects rather than religious per se). Christmas is another debate altogether, of course, although I would argue that its roots in pagan celebration and the appropriation of the time/symbols/events by the Christian Church make it easier for an atheist to not get too worked up about it.
If you 'do' God, whatever religion you are, that is your choice and I respect that , but your religious activity has meaning and relevance for you and I wouldn't want to intrude on it with my heathen attitudes. So I will stay away from the Church, marry in a civil ceremony, not baptise my child(ren) and stick to Christmas as being a time to spend quality time with my family rather than as a celebration of the birth of Christ, OK?
At: Home
Feeling: 
calm
calm25 November 2007 @ 05:32 pm
Christmas
A number of people on my flist have made posts or comments on their feelings about Christmas. I have no problem with them, they are entitled to their opinion. However, rather than risk getting into a brouha about it by commenting on other posts I though it best to confine my feelings to a post of my own.
I love Christmas. I'm the really annoying person who starts getting excited about nowish and doesn't stop until at least the New Year.
I like buying presents. I like getting presents. I like lots of yummy food, and excuses to drink even more alcohol. I like Christmas telly and time off work. I like sparkly things and decorations. I like the joy.
I agree with some of the points made re the commercialisation, but that has happened to every part of life. Christmas is stil essentially about love and family (I don't do God so this is my rationalisation of the 'meaning' of Christmas), and I don't feel lots of pressure to 'perform'. I buy presents for those closest to me as an expression of how much I care for them . They know that I love them and the gift doesn't really matter, but for me half of the fun is in choosing the right gift for each person. This shows that I know them and I know what they like.
It's a little different with the children. Sometimes I actually do find myself buying a random generic toy because it is expected that I will get them something. As they are a rapidly expanding brood I now don't spend that much on them, so I don't resent this. Besides, all the kids I buy for are generally well-rounded and everyone needs spoiling every now and then.
Actually this year I have yet to get into the holiday spirit, probably because I have been so busy. But next week the tree and the decorations are coming out and the Slade CD is going on. Merry Christmas Everyone!
I love Christmas. I'm the really annoying person who starts getting excited about nowish and doesn't stop until at least the New Year.
I like buying presents. I like getting presents. I like lots of yummy food, and excuses to drink even more alcohol. I like Christmas telly and time off work. I like sparkly things and decorations. I like the joy.
I agree with some of the points made re the commercialisation, but that has happened to every part of life. Christmas is stil essentially about love and family (I don't do God so this is my rationalisation of the 'meaning' of Christmas), and I don't feel lots of pressure to 'perform'. I buy presents for those closest to me as an expression of how much I care for them . They know that I love them and the gift doesn't really matter, but for me half of the fun is in choosing the right gift for each person. This shows that I know them and I know what they like.
It's a little different with the children. Sometimes I actually do find myself buying a random generic toy because it is expected that I will get them something. As they are a rapidly expanding brood I now don't spend that much on them, so I don't resent this. Besides, all the kids I buy for are generally well-rounded and everyone needs spoiling every now and then.
Actually this year I have yet to get into the holiday spirit, probably because I have been so busy. But next week the tree and the decorations are coming out and the Slade CD is going on. Merry Christmas Everyone!
At: Home
Feeling: calm
calm18 November 2007 @ 08:31 pm
QAF icons
18 November 2007 @ 12:34 pm
QAF Haikus
Just realised that I never actually posted these here. They were for
qaffangyrl's Haiku Challenge and they are my first attempt at writing any kind of fanfic AT ALL. So if you comment please be gentle...
qaffangyrl's Haiku Challenge and they are my first attempt at writing any kind of fanfic AT ALL. So if you comment please be gentle...At: Home
Feeling: 
artistic
artistic
bored13 October 2007 @ 06:40 pm
I have a new journal
blah11 October 2007 @ 08:59 am
More care in the community
Following on from my previous post about the latest in 'bright ideas' from management, here is an extract from an email I received yesterday:
"As an interim step, we have produced a brightly coloured folder to contain the care plan. The idea is to encourage all service users to put a copy of the plan in the folder and to bring it with them to appointments etc. We are identifying a week in which teams are ask to prioritise trying to ensure that all service users are offered a care plan and to distribute care folders. It would be an opportunity to ensure that Care Plans are up to date, relevant and meaningful to service users, carers and clinicians. I appreciate everyone is very busy and that this will be time consuming. I accept that this will be seen by some as a trivial attempt to massage the outcome of the next survey. However we are hoping that this push will increase both the number of service users with Care Plans and more importantly the number who find them useful."
Let us dissect this:
1. "an opportunity to ensure that Care Plans are up to date, relevant and meaningful to service users, carers and clinicians" - generally they aren't. Relevant and meaningful I mean, in our team they are at least, generally, up-to-date. Most service users/patients don't actual give a flying one if they have a 'care plan' or not - they just want to be treated with respect and professionalism by a clinician who knows them and their illness. Most clinicians have their own ongoing idea of what their patients care involves. Some of us even write it in the notes. Read the post on Mental Nurse about Care Plans. All of my care plans say "Will be seen by CPN to monitor mental state, medication compliance and risk" - I wouldn't be a very good CPN if that was not routine practice. They say "Monitored by Psychiatry in Outpatients" - again, standard practice.
2. " I accept that this will be seen by some as a trivial attempt to massage the outcome of the next survey." - Spot on. Because that is exactly what it is. It has absolutely nothing to do with patient care and everything to do with making the Trust look good in some fuckwitted (copyright: Dr Rant) target scheme.
If they really want to improve what patients/service users think of us then this is what they should do: give us more Nurses, and pay the CPN's we do have at a Band 7 (the AfC banding issue is for a different rant).
awake22 September 2007 @ 05:48 pm
Read it and weep...
PUBLIC POST
Yesterday evening I had an insight into the workings of Nulabours "consultation" process on the planned closure of NHS District General Hospitals and replacement with dumbed down polyclinics.
A few weeks ago invitations to attend a public consultation were sent to consultants at our Trust. We were only given one day to reply for the meeting in the near future even though we have to give 6 weeks notice of leave because of "choose and book".
Obviously this meant that most of us could not attend but one consultant did take up the invitation.
The location of the meeting was kept secret until three days before the event and when this consultant was eventually told the location and turned up in Birmingham for the "Citizens Jury" it turned out that medical staff were outnumbered 2:1 by laypeople specifically chosen by an agency to attend the event. The media were present and had obviously been invited to publicise the event.
Full post here
Yesterday evening I had an insight into the workings of Nulabours "consultation" process on the planned closure of NHS District General Hospitals and replacement with dumbed down polyclinics.
A few weeks ago invitations to attend a public consultation were sent to consultants at our Trust. We were only given one day to reply for the meeting in the near future even though we have to give 6 weeks notice of leave because of "choose and book".
Obviously this meant that most of us could not attend but one consultant did take up the invitation.
The location of the meeting was kept secret until three days before the event and when this consultant was eventually told the location and turned up in Birmingham for the "Citizens Jury" it turned out that medical staff were outnumbered 2:1 by laypeople specifically chosen by an agency to attend the event. The media were present and had obviously been invited to publicise the event.
Full post here
22 September 2007 @ 05:36 pm
Repost
PUBLIC POST
In case anyone has an answer:
Does anybody know why I can't get sound when using the internet at the moment? I initially thought that it was a problem with the speakers but iTunes works fine. Just get no sound from YouTube etc.
I use Firefox but it's the same in IE. Anyone any ideas?
*I know it must have something to do with some download or add-on but any idea how I work out what and fix it, bearing in mind that even though I am supposedly the office tech whizz I'm a bit dumb with computers really?*
In case anyone has an answer:
Does anybody know why I can't get sound when using the internet at the moment? I initially thought that it was a problem with the speakers but iTunes works fine. Just get no sound from YouTube etc.
I use Firefox but it's the same in IE. Anyone any ideas?
*I know it must have something to do with some download or add-on but any idea how I work out what and fix it, bearing in mind that even though I am supposedly the office tech whizz I'm a bit dumb with computers really?*